Bella's New Year Dress Chapter 30

This is Bella's dress she wore for the New Year party.

Chapter 30 Update

Happy New Year everyone.  I am working diligently, in between visits with family, and typing my heart out.  The next chapter has 8 pages ready.  I usually do 9-12 pages so we're on our way to being done.  I will keep you informed.

1st and 10 Chapter 29 Update/Teaser

*waves like crazy*  Hello everyone...all 5 of you.  Chapter 29 has been pre-read by Mrs. Sarah.  She has added her suggestions and now it's all up to my beautiful beta Mandee.  As soon as I get it back i will post it for you.  Here is a teaser.

“Bella…be reasonable. It’s not fucking safe and you know it.” He said with a hint of sadness in his voice as he pulled on his untamed hair again. 

I was sick of the “be reasonable” I kept hearing from everyone.  Reasonable was me not losing my fucking mind after everything I had learned over the past few days.  Dr. Cullen wasn’t anything like Dr. Riley which was good and bad.  Dr. Cullen was strait forward and explained everything I had been through physically while I was…away.  I was extremely dehydrated and malnourished when I arrived, but the IV was coming out in thirty minutes.  I had died twice on the damn operating table and was revived, but not without issues to my system.  I was healing as expected physically, but mentally they were concerned.  Dr. Cullen was having a shrink come by and talk to me after the Christmas holiday and assess my needs on a physiological level.  That was the only good news…well good as I was going to get for the time being.

The mutilation to my ankles, were the hooks had been imbedded in my skin, needed surgery.  There was significant damage to the tendons, muscles and bone, which had to be repaired. Over the next year I would have to have multiple reconstructive surgeries on both legs as well as a skin graph on my stomach.  I was going to be in a wheel chair for god only knew how long and would have to rely on someone for most of my basic necessities until I learned how to maneuver in and out of the wheelchair.   I was going to have to learn to walk again and I may even have to use braces for the rest of my life even after all that. 

I had a mental cluster fuck going on in my brain because I hadn’t been raped at all like I thought.  There was speculation about them raping girls in the same room as I was in, to make me think it was happening to me, so they could manipulate me easier.  I was trying to figure out what was reality and what was from the drugs they had me doped up on in captivity. 

I hid the cringes when people touched me, which was not as successful as I hoped, and I could see pain on Edwards face every time I flinched.  I worried I would not be able to be held in his arms ever again. What if I couldn’t stand to be touched in any form?  I was scared shitless about the future and what it meant for me and the man I loved.  I was worried he wouldn’t want me anymore.  I tried to keep my body covered when he was near me just so he wouldn’t be appalled by me.  I think for everything I had gone through and was still going through I was being damn reasonable.  I just didn’t want to spend one more minute in this damn room when it wasn’t going to change a thing about my situation.

“It’s just as safe as me being in this damn hospital room.” I retort hostility seeping through my voice.

“Charlie and Sam-“

“Charlie will be with you and Sam is here with me.  I’m not arguing about this any damn more Edward!”

“Isabella!”

“DO NOT Isabella me…you are not going to throw out that dominant shit when you don’t get your way…you tried controlling my life once before and that didn’t go well.” I spat.  Edwards head snaps up toward mine and the hurt on his face makes me realize what I just implied. I gasp and cover my mouth with my hands.

Edward stormed out of the room without a second glance and I felt a tear slips down my face.

“I didn’t mean it like that.” I whispered into the room as I buried my head in my hands and cried.  

Teaser Chapter 25: Hail Mary.

The beeping started going faster and I didn't care. I didn't care because I was in a hospital I was safe.

I had been found.

"Bella..." I heard Charlie gasp as he skidded into the room. It was the best thing I had ever heard.

"Dad?" I choked out through a sob.

I felt his hand take mine,"Yeah Bells it's me...you're safe."

ROB's Breakup

I wish there was some way to help our SEXY, WONDERFUL MAN during his time of sorrow.  If you have read my first story Rupture you know I went through something similar.  I caught my husband cheating, with one of his fifteen different women, when my baby was only three months old.  I had friends who hugged me daily and kept me sane.  They threatened to beat me within an inch of my life if I took him back. (Which was smart because once a cheater always a cheater.) They made me laugh, got me totally plastering drunk and was my rock.  I wouldn't have survived without them.I know how hard it was for me and I didn't live in the spotlight.  I feel bad for Rob in the fact he has to grieve in the public eye.  My friends and I were talking about how he needs to dissapear for awhile after the Cosmopolis premier.  We live in the middle of nowhere (Nephi, Utah)  and thats where Rob really needs to go. (the middle of Nowhere not Nephi even though we wouldn't mind lol)  We had talked about how if he was in our small town, no one would really pay attention to him, only the girl(s) that where hanging around him.  lol.  Small town gossip would focus on "Oh my god did you see that ...... had another man"  So my advice to Rob is to get away lol Find a small town in the middle of Nowhere and grieve.  All my support is with him in this time.  Good Luck Sexy Man things will work out and get better I promise :)

Chaper 25

Pre-reading done...check.  Beta edit....check.  Correct Beta suggestions...check.  It's ready to go peaps should be up soon.  I'll post a teaser in the next couple of days. :)

Chapter 25

I finished my editing last night and I've sent it off to the Beta etc.  :)